how am i supposed to tell you straight in your face that i dont like you? you think its easy for me to see the hurt on your face? life's like that nothing is fair. i tried to accept you but i just cant do it. only then did i realise i treat you like a friend. i just dont know why i feel this way but whether you like it or not, its like this. i dont blame you if you hate me for life, cause i did shatter your dreams and i did cause you to be heartbroken, unless you did not really like me that much in the first place. now i am only left with 2 options. i think i'll take the second one. maybe going back to being the innocent person i was is so much easier than this. there is so much things going on i bet you didnt know i cried did you. i did and cheryl knew. everything just came out of my mouth. my sufferings, all my troubles. i just had to tell someone. and i cant believe everything accumulated up to such a big thing that i even cried. both of your comforted me when i needed comfort, and i would like to thank your for it. i'm really very glad. i hope what has happenend wont affect our friendship, but it doesnt matter if you hate me or treat me like your enemy cause i understand perfectly if you do, whats it like to feel heartbroken. why dont you just go with your 'sister' im sure she appreaciates you more than i do. you'll feel happier there i do not want to go on hurting you at this rate. cause i am not doing anything and you are hurt already. i dont understand you at all and sometimes i reaaly wonder. Have i done wrong? and i just apologise so you wont feel hurt. i realised i do care for you, but as a friend. i am sorry to have made you suffer and everything, cause it was you who felt hurt and insecure. i read your earlier posts and i just want to comment about something. you wrote "when i kissed you, you dont give a damn". i dunno if it hurts you or not but i really dont know wad to do so i dont really go bother about it. and i though about all my reactions to what you say. somehow i dont feel anything when you say " i love you". i know this really will hurt you but i am just being truthful here. its better for you to know everything so you can get over it and realise that you will feel much happier with your "sister", i figured that out. i just hope now that you wont hate huixin beacuse of me.
♥Bid Farewell
